November 2018

This Body

Wearing this black dress from Boohoo really tested my resolve to document my style journey. After many years of wishing and finding every reason why I couldn’t be a style blogger or lifestyle blogger, I finally told myself it was time. The primary obstacle had been my lack of body confidence. I just don’t know how to deal with my body. So, I avoided my body as much as possible.

That strategy of avoidance has worked until I realized it was the primary impediment to my happiness. So I decide to change my relationship with my body by taking more pictures of my body. This meant buying more clothes.

One hands on hip, side view of the midi black dress.

I recently bought some clothes from Boohoo because I got a great discount deal. I was a bit hesistant when I saw the clothes because I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be show off my curves. I bought things that appeared to be on the more modest spectrum of Boohoo. I loved this black dress in particular because of its length. It also has non-functional gold buttons down the front, giving it an interesting detail. I figured it would be a good staple closet item for the winter. Items arrived, I tried it on and it was okay.

I have on a leopard print scarf on a black midi length dress with gold faux buttons down the front.

Picture day with the black faux button down dress happened…and it freaking sent me into an emotional meltdown. I just did not like how sexy my body looked. I kept saying, “I don’t want to be a porn star.” Yes, I can be a bit melodramatic. Sue me! However, when the moment passed and I started looking over the picture again, I realized that I was having a reaction because I saw my body. I wasn’t in a baggy sweater and pants. The dress showed off my shape in all its glory. There is nothing wrong with that.

A leopard print scarf is wrapped loosely around my shoulder over a black faux button down dress with gold buttons

After having this moment with this black dress, I am sure I am going to have so much fun layering it for the winter. Because it fits so well, I am excited to layer it with chunky sweaters and bulky scarfs. To me, there is nothing as beautiful as playing with texture and fit in my outfit.

Changing Time

A red Moto Jacket from Old Navy has become a key piece in my wardrobe as I transition from fall to winter.

I finally got around to changing my wardrobe this past weekend. Slowly as always, I am changing out my summer clothes for the winter ones. Maybe it is the optimist in me. I am hoping for just one more day of warmth when I can sit outside and feel the rays of the sun of my skin. Alas, I have had to come to terms with reality. I have been stuck in a jacket or a cardigan for a while now. I just had to let go.

Nothing like a direct look to make me feel like I am a boss. The gray pullover is a basic HM piece from at least a couple of winters ago.

My fall/winter wardrobe is something that I have been actively working to build.  I am not a big shopper and I try to stay away from looking at my body. This year, for some reasons, I feel like it is time for my body and I to call a truce. A big part of the truce is honoring my body by giving it an opportunity to shine. Hence, the active process of building a wardrobe that actually works for me.

The zipper on the cuffs makes this ideal for wearing sweaters under it. It also gives the jacket some rich detail.

A key piece for these past few weeks of chill has been this red Moto Jacket that I bought from Old Navy. I love a good sale and when I had an opportunity to get this at a discount, I just couldn’t resist. The deep red color reminds me of all the burgundy red lipsticks I have hoarded in my stash. There just something about this color that makes me feel like I am glowing. 

This animal print scarf is available from Primark. I just love how cosy it feels as a winter layer.

I am looking forward to discovering more clothes that make me happy. This feels so weird because I feel like a new part of me is emerging. I have a deep love of fashion and I have always felt like I have style. So maybe it is not so much that a new part is being born as it is that I am going through a process of reclamation.

There is nothing that feels my soul at the moment as much as knowing that I am fearlessly taking back who I am. There is a lot going on with me at the moment and it just feels so good.